Starting again- how many times do we find ourself here. Beginning again to move forward as the Lord would have us. From ground zero, square one, coming off the bench once again to join life.
Years ago- I liked starting again. I had so much energy and strength- I liked change and rearranging and reorganizing. Now I like things arranged and organized- just not as much into redoing it all.
So for the past two years the ride of life has brought us back to the beginning- feeling more like the bottom. We now- middle aged adults- being life again. Just the sound of this exhausts me. And it has been an exhausting process. However, I see growth and maturity and that brings hope. I feel some healing and that brings peace.
God has a plan and I am choosing to trust Him in this process. I am thankful for so many things I took for granted. I am thankful for a clear mind, for being able to focus, to rest in Him. I am thankful He whispers in my ear when I can do nothing but lay before Him- no words from my mouth, no sound except my breath and he is there in that moment. He whispers- you are ok, you will be ok. I don't feel that- but He says it and I will trust Him.
Here's to a new start, Rose.
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