Bing cherries- the day you and I road into Winston in my Mustang just to buy them and share them on the way home when I was pregnant with Marisa, grandma's pickles- you and I shared a love for them like no other, jet boat rides.
VW Bus- I pass one on the way home sometimes and it makes my heart want to burst out of sadness, guitar picks, my right index finger- cuz you were missing part of yours.
Hearing someone say "Sissy" you are the only one to ever call me that- there are many other things because you so touched my life in more ways than you ever could have imagined. There is a part of me that seems to always be thinking about you.
Today you would be 26 years old.
I remember the summer of '99 when you were baptized. O how I hope that sealed you in the Book of Life. Out of all the memories I have, this is my most treasured. For it is the only one that gives me any hope of ever seeing you again. I have dreaded this day for 8 months and I know I will make it through however hard it may be, but I do wish I could hug you and say Happy Birthday face to face. And to say thank you for always being so great to my kids. They miss you so much. We all do.This is where my thoughts are today as this year closes out. It has been a sad year in our home. God is good- I know that. He will get us through- I hold on to nothing tighter than this. Jesus is my breath and strength and I don't know how a person would get through this without Him. O how I long to know you are with Him. To see you standing there with Him- I love you Chris.
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| New Years Eve when Chris turned 24 |
Thank you so much Sissy for what you just wrote in this blog.
ReplyDeleteEvery time i feel that state of shock, anger, and disbelief i think of the feeling that the good Lord gave me when i prayed over Chris's body.
He is in heaven and we will see him in the good life.
I love you sissy;)